Moksh ka Dwaar

With the ongoing Maha Kumbh and me still oscillating between going, not going, and my reasons thereof, I came to an understanding that I am more drawn to the idea because of the beliefs attached to this event! A dip in these sacred waters assures me a one-way safe passage onwards.

Effectively, this implies that I have paid all the debts of this life, and of any past life too! From here on, I can spend the rest my days with the awareness that when I depart from this life, I will merge with the source.

Is this the lure for all the pilgrims, I wonder? Are the unprecedented number of devotees racing to Maha Kumbh nourishing this very idea? So, how does a dip, (I was only wanting to wet my feet!) change my life?

After this sacred dip, what if I didn’t have any plans to alter my ways of life? I continued to harbor thoughts detrimental to my own wellbeing, there was no change in my ways, behavior, actions either! This pass expires with my last breath, and I need to do nothing to live up to this pass I earned because of the sacred dip. Is this what it is?  Don’t I want to remain qualified for this free pass through the gates of heaven?   

If wetting my feet, or bathing in these sacred waters offers salvation, everything or at least something about me must be transformed, right? What needs to change? The inner me or the outer me? If it is the outer me, then I am doomed already because only a cosmetic surgery can do that for me! And if it is the inner me, then it is an ongoing journey. Even after a sacred dip, I need to cleanse myself every day, hour and minute, because I don’t know when my last moment will come, and I need to keep myself eligible for the pass to heaven, don’t I?