PLR - Seeking a closure

Despite regular practice of meditation, the pace of my life remains rushed, and my meditative state lasts only a couple of hours after I complete my meditation. Too soon, my mindset and moods return back to their habitual pathways.

Because of meditation, my reactions are tempered, and my explosive anger is altered to momentary annoyance. I know I am a better person and consistently peeling away my prickly layers gently, and consciously! Yet, meditation was not helping me break free from repetitive patterns of thoughts, and behaviors. Time and again I fall prey to the samskaras which are deeply embedded in my subconscious mind. My master in a talk said that samskaras or impressions are like weeds growing on the riverbed. Because the river is currently dry and I don’t see the weeds, I delude myself into thinking that I have gotten rid of them. One spring shower is all it takes for the weeds to sprout back! This vicious cycle and made me feel enslaved.

I did not have the time, will, or enthusiasm to dig deep into my past, and uproot all the weeds. More importantly, what if the weeds were not of this life! Maybe my past life or lives had caught up with me and this present life is the one in which I am destined to repay these karmic debts? But I wanted to uproot them once for all, because these behaviors and thought patterns made me behave in a way that’s detrimental to my own well-being.

The sense of closure, and freedom will continue to elude me, if I am caught in this web. This awareness of wanting to be in a conscious meditative state all the time helped me approach Past Life Regression with an open mind.  I look forward to a life where I say what I mean, mean what I say, and all my actions match my words.

“As above, so below, as within, so without, as the universe, so the soul…” ― Hermes Trismegistus! And experience the joy of feeling free, liberated always!