Complacency - The sneaky Devil!

With the workload suddenly spiking beyond control in the last month, I cut myself some slack and let go of a few tasks I had previously promised that I would complete diligently. Very surreptitiously one week extended itself into two weeks. It is more than a month now and I have yet to revisit those tasks.

Work never ends, and new errands find their way into my daily life. I am so washed out by Friday, that the very thought of switching on the laptop during the weekend is loathe some for me. All I look forward to during the weekends is to stay away from the laptop. Sadly, the result is that the earnestly prepared to do list stares back at me with all the pending to dos!

After our group meditation, Master gave a small talk wherein he highlighted this point, ‘To be conscious and continuously aware of complacency’. He was talking about himself and apologized for having to cancel two Satsang’s the previous day. He was unwell, and the reason for being unwell was his own carelessness. The price he had to pay for his momentary lapse of alertness was what he was apologetic about. Cancelling two satsanghs’ effectively meant that he had disappointed thousands of eager aspirants who would have been waiting for hours in the anticipation of a meditation session with Him. And that was a huge loss for Him.

I was filled with awe. A person of His stature was acknowledging and accepting his fault. And to be reckless, or carefree was possible for anyone, and at any stage in life. To acknowledge and make the change was the important message.

Personally, I did not have a heavy price to pay. What calamity would befall on anyone if I did not publish my blog posts?  So, to be alert and not allow complacency to creep was challenging. But the number of times I allowed this devil to win, was the number of times compounded, it would take me to get my will back and keep my promise to myself!  

So, the relevant question for me was: How far was I willing to compromise with my Self?